Have you ever experienced the kind of joy that is born from someone else’s pain? It’s the kind where two parties give and get and both hearts burst but in opposite directions. Foster care and adoption are full of that kind of mixed-bag joy. It is always holding your happy and someone’s sad at the … Continue reading
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a new low
This week has been a daily exercise in frustration. Every day has been so frustrating that the word “frustrating” isn’t quite big enough for the experience. Every simple errand ballooned into 45 splinter errands. Projects that should have been straight-forward were thwarted by user error and stupidness. Things that were done had to be redone … Continue reading
practicing the love
Some things happened last week that are making me work to love my husband better. First, I told a (fairly empty) room full of people that loving someone doesn’t require biology – that, in fact, you love who you serve. I may have even used the word, “hogwash.” (Proud of that. What a great word!) I … Continue reading
absence makes the heart…
My husband just returned from a business trip. You know that I straight-up, flat-out LOVE him right? So I am flummoxed about why I would like him to get back on an airplane right now and give me another week or so without him. There are a few possibilities: California King all to myself people. … Continue reading
to my kids who aren’t my kids
I’m joining Rachel’s linky party today by writing a Mother’s Day letter to my kids – well, to two of them anyway. You’ll have to pretend for a bit that we’re in England though because it’s Mother’s Day a tad earlier on that side of the Atlantic – March 30 actually. So, in honor, I’m writing this … Continue reading
in the moment
“Most people live in the past, or trying to peek into the future,” she said as I crouched in my chair, arms wrapped tightly around my middle, shielding myself from her truth, embarrassed of my need for it. “It is an art, to live in the present, to let the past and the future be … Continue reading
the Bawden ask
I have a fabulous friend who I’ll call Naomi – because that’s her real name. She and her husband have been married ten years. At some point in those years, Naomi asked her husband to a church dance as if she were asking him to prom – in other words, extravagantly. I don’t remember all … Continue reading
just married…
… 19 years ago. But still excited! Last week marked the nineteenth year I have been married to my man. And it feels almost like something. Next year, now THAT will be a big year – a cruise-worthy, celebrate-able year. Next year will mark the year I will have been married as long as I … Continue reading
a day in the life
You guys. I’m tired. And getting on the computer is impossible these days. Because when I sat down to send an e-mail to the little kiddo’s caseworkers today, this is what happened… mmm-hmm Anyone want to babysit while I blog?
smiles
I got six hours of sleep last night and I got a babysitter today so I found myself sitting in the parking lot of Target grinning like a fool, giggling like a school girl. I cannot believe I am sitting on the other side of a worry that has weighed me down for months. My … Continue reading
open book open heart 